In order to start something new you do have to finish somehow what was before, so a short revision of the last couple months.
I am still in total debt and I just hope "excitedly expect" that very very soon I will see some light in this tunnel. (But I am using a program called Dark Room and in front of me there are only green letters I produce, so it might be challenging for the bright light to come through, anyway).
I have almost married a guy who was simply not for me. I am independent and I hate when people are not. It paralyzes me when somebody depends on me, says he cannot live without me and so on. You can imagine what did I hear from that guy. Well, I believed a lie, that everything will somehow work out and my tolerance level went up. Totally unreasonably. I was accepting things that were unacceptable before. Which all in all is called going down. Fortunately I still have friends, who summed up all good and bad points of the situation and let me think about it. The result was Mr Benoit is blocked and will not harass me anymore. Also all evidence of his poor existence were destroyed and quickly forgotten.
And here comes Sunny. Tomorrow I am visiting him in Brussels. Which will be quite an adventure. I wanted him to know all the bad stuff first, as I had no intention of getting into serious relationship with anyone. Well, he didn't give up. His attitude is always radiating and his smile never fades. On the other hand he is smarter than I am (even though he thinks differently). He challenges me and is a true inspiration. Living life with passion and giving love everywhere he goes.
So even if this is not "the one for now" I will spend a day with a man who is charming and independent enough to give me freedom I lacked recently.
Smokey!